I will say that being 45 (much more than 44, 43, or even 40) has given me a buffer to not necessarily care how others feel about me. I am still sensitive to others and even more careful about how I behave, but my skin has grown thick. Snarky remarks or rude and sarcastic comments used to crush me. Now I have the ability to throw up my hands and say 'Oh well!'. That is something I could never do before my 45th birthday. It feels good.
I have watched many relationships slide away during the past five years. Some went quietly and naturally and others left with a loud boom. There are times past that I will cherish forever but everything happens for a reason and at the moment I am exactly where I am supposed to be and with who I am supposed to be with.
However, I do wish my body hadn't hit the wall and started breaking down. I feel like I'm aging on a fast track.
Nobody is ever fully immune from hurtful comments but getting older certainly helps a lot! My biggest enemy is myself though. I need to learn to be nicer to me.
ReplyDeleteI can't say that my body has broken down, it is still healthy, but it sure has started sliding down! All things considered though, I'll take 45 over 25 any day :-).
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