Showing posts with label thanks. Show all posts
Showing posts with label thanks. Show all posts

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Thankful

So much to be thankful for!

1) I am thankful that on this day I have been lice-free for twenty days.   This is big.  Towards the end of the school year Cha came home with lice, which is an evil bastard that we battled daily for three weeks.  We were picking nits every single day, doing chemical and natural treatments way more often than we should, threw away bedding, overworked the hot water setting on the washing machine, sent all stuffed animals and soft sofa pillows to exile and went thru several packets of vacuum cleaner bags during that time.  We did everything we were told and tried everything that was suggested.  We are all now lice experts and I pray each and every day that they keep their distance.   So many tears.

2) I am thankful (truly blessed) for the week we were able to spend with my dad.  Or rather, the week he spent with us.  Every summer we drive out and visit him but this year I just couldn't bring myself to do it.  Instead we invited my dad to come visit us and he did.  He took the train, which was a whole new experience and we had a great time hanging out, laughing, playing games and just talking.    It truly was a gift and I pray that he can do it again next year.

3) I am thankful that I made it to 45.   Forty five is old, no longer even middle aged, but my mind still feels youthful and I can appreciate things (and people) like never before.  I've learned to keep my mouth shut, allow people to fail and redeem themselves on their own, hold dear friends closely, trust my gut, slow down and think, and don't suffer fools gladly.

4) I am thankful for the 230k+ miles that my little Subaru gave us before it went kaput.   That car gave us its all and it was appreciated.   We traded her in for another Toyota so we are now a two Toyota family, and totally loving it.  

5) I am thankful (as always) for Craigslist for helping to bring the perfect desk into our home.   The beautiful roll top desk which was purchased for $30 but didn't quite fit the family was traded for another beautiful desk which fits perfectly.  It's big, but not too big, comfortable, and exactly what we needed.

6) I am thankful for my circle of friends, including those in the outer regions who help keep our small town life interesting and grounded while helping to keep our time at the local pool entertaining.

7)  I am thankful for forgiveness, both received and given.  I have learned that it's enough to forgive without amends being made by either party.   Sometimes nothing else needs to be said, and that's okay.

8)  I am thankful for a power air conditoning unit which keeps our home comfortable in these extreme 90+ degree temps.  Holy Toledo it's hot!

9) I am thankful for the local library for allowing me to check out all formats of books, including audio  which helps keep me sane during my new 24 mile commute.   Our office moved and whereas I used to be a wonderful 8 miles from the office, I am now 24 miles away and have to take the dreaded Schuylkill Expressway to Philly.  Audio books keep my mind off the craziness of the roads.

10) I am thankful for my life.   I am alive.  

Monday, February 20, 2012

Happy Birthday George!


We made several visits to Valley Forge National Park this weekend to celebrate President's Day. They hosted a birthday party for George Washington complete with artillery demonstration (those canons are LOUD), reenactors, crafts for the kids, lots of music and cake for the big guy himself.

The weather was perfect and we had a fabulous time. I love being surrounded by so much history.

Friday, February 10, 2012

friday!


Tonight is Friday and fun will be had. We're picking up the tastiest veggie stromboli ever from Giovannis , dropping Cha off at the Y, and then heading out for movie night. The house will be guarded by the two animals above. I am confident that anyone trying to sneak in will be immediately weakened by their cuteness.

Thank you for Friday!

Monday, January 30, 2012

a perfect moment

I had a perfect moment recently and was lucky enough to realize it.

We took Cha to her first horse riding lesson. It's something she's been dreaming about for a long while. The lessons were a Christmas present from us and she's been talking about them daily ('How many more days now??'). She was shaking with excitement the day of her lesson and we were pretty pumped too.

Matt and I stood in the observation area while our little girl circled the ring. She showed great confidence and balance and took in everything the instructor threw at her. We could see her smile from 100 yards away.

Our sweet little girl was blissfully happy, and my goodness did that feel good.

I am so blessed.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

December Happiness

This month is about accentuating the positive. I've hit a few speed bumps lately and I am trying to let it all go and surround myself with good things and good people.

Matt and I spread a little Christmas cheer last weekend. It was selfless and random and gave both of us the warm and fuzzies. We need to do more of that year round.

Earlier this month Cha and I went Christmas caroling at a local senior center. It was precious beyond words and I had to stop several times to catch my breath. I was trying so hard not to cry that I couldn't breathe. One of the little girls who was singing with us kept watching my tears and asking what was wrong. I told her the singing was so beautiful it made me cry.

Matt and Cha went to the aquarium and had an amazing time. Matt wanted to take her to the Museum of Art but Cha said she wanted to touch a sting ray, so that's what they did. They also pet sharks, star fish and sea cucumbers. I had a Daisy meeting so I couldn't join them, but next time for sure.

A few weeks ago we attended the Phoenixville Firebird Festival. It's a must-see for anyone in the area. We started the night walking around town looking at all the crafts and street performers, had a tasty meal, sat for a quick chat with Santa then watched that bird burn. Fun night.

~ making ornaments at busy bees pottery ~


~ petting baby sharks at the camden aquarium ~


~ watching the phoenix go up in flames ~


~ gansta girls out on the town ~


~ dinner at mollys ~


~ a chat with an old friend ~


~ how is my baby girl so grown up? ~

As I write this it's nearly one in the morning and I am sitting next to the Christmas tree. I am mesmerized by it's patches of light. Several years ago we got a pre-lit tree. The kitties and the puppy have done a number on it and chewed up many of the wires and branches. This tree will have a very short life. It's still beautiful and gives off a spiritual glow.

Tomorrow we have a playdate with friends followed by a Christmas celebration with family. Christmas morning we will be waking up in our own house and watching Cha ooooh and ahhhh over her presents then spend the afternoon with more family.

There are many positives in my life and I am very blessed.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Sharing

In December 2007 I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I was open with the details and shared them with anyone who was interested. In turn I heard from many friends, family and near strangers who had similar experiences. I learned much from those who shared their stories. It made a difficult time easier..

In pretty much all of 2008 (and beyond) I battled with anxiety and depression. I did not hide the fact but was too paralyzed with fear to speak much about it. I could not bring myself to share many of the details. I posted a link recently that sums it up perfectly tho I did not have the words to describe it when it was happening. However, what little I did share was met by a virtual crowd of people screaming 'been there, done that'. I had no idea depression and anxiety were that common.

In November 2009 my brother took his own life via self immolation. I shared the news with everyone. I was shocked to hear the whispers of people who had lost loved ones to suicide or who had made attempts in the past themselves. It happens more than you know. I went to support groups to share my experience and to listen to others who felt my pain. For me, talking was the best medicine.

In September 2010 I lost my mother. The time leading up to her death was incredibly painful. I knew it was happening yet I could not bring myself to talk about it. There were a few emails to close girlfriends about my fears and perhaps an extra cocktail or two when I really didn't want to think about the reality. I was not in denial I was just tired of putting myself out there, again. Quite frankly, the pain is exhausting.

What I have learned most since December 2007 is the importance of being open and sharing. Keeping things inside, whether they are feelings or secrets, is dangerous. After my brother killed himself a friend shared that her boyfriend took his own life 20 years ago, while they were together. She did not tell her family and kept the details of his death secret from his friends. Twenty years later she's still carrying the same pain.

Not too long ago I learned that someone I love was abused in a very horrendous way. I shared the pain with my girlfriends because I needed to talk about it. I could not keep it inside. The pain was too much. And as always, the story was met with a loud roar of 'it happened to me too'. Who knew I had my own little support group of women who were abused when they were girls.

I have not found one feeling or experience that I've had that hasn't been validated by another person. And that's kinda what it's about, the validation. If I have it alone I must be insanely crazy, on the verge of losing my mind. If others have it as well, knowing there's a connection helps things hurt a little bit less.

Some have accused me of over-sharing or giving way too much information. That may be true but the more I share the better I feel, and I know that my words have felt others feel better as well.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Happy Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving Hike along the Schuylkill River

Happy Thanksgiving!

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Giving Thanks (part two)

16. I am thankful for my many years of therapy. There were times when I felt like I wasn't quite right in the head and quite possibly the most messed up person on the planet. Thanks to my therapist(s) I learned that I'm actually rather normal and my brain is on straight. I know I have issues and maybe a character flaw or two that need to be worked on, but overall I'm pretty balanced. It's nice to have someone keep you in check.

17. I am thankful for the open road and endless possibilities. I love road trips and it's comforting knowing that family is only a drive away, even if I don't have anything scheduled.

18. I am thankful for snail mail. The USPS announced recently that rates will be increasing in 2012. A regular first class letter will now be $0.45. Some may gripe since it seems that rates go up every year, but I think it's fine. I think first class stamps should be $0.50 and the extra nickle be used to upgrade outdated equipment and streamline the whole process. Nothing beats getting a letter or card in the mail.

19. I am thankful for the pricey pre-lit Christmas tree we bought on clearance several years ago. I think it was 80% off so we paid less than $40. We set the tree up over the weekend and I love how easy it was to assemble, without having to mess with a tangled string of lights. I was a live-tree girl for many years but with a child and house full of pets, I got tired of the clean-up.

20. I am thankful for my DVR and before that a string of VCRs that allowed me to keep up to date on my soaps. I've been watching my soaps regularly for over 30 years. For the last fifteen years I've been able to follow daily by recording and getting caught up at night or on weekends. In January my most treasured soap (OLTL) will be going away. It may be just one less show for my DVR to record, but it's going to leave a big void. I'm not quite sure how I'll adjust.

21. I am thankful for Words with Friends for keeping me entertained in the middle of the night when Puppy is awake, needing to pee or has too much energy. It's also come in handy in the doctor's office, the grocery check out, and while dinner is cooking. I play with family, friends or random people. Some games take a week to finish and others are over in a day. If you play please challenge me to a game. Username: jonijenks

22. I am thankful for Cha's grandparents for taking her for sleepovers. Cha loves her Mimi and Pa and I am grateful that they are local and have built such a beautiful relationship with her. I cherish the time I spent with my grandmother and it's important to me that Cha has memories of her grandmother as well.

23. I am thankful for Travis, who found a litter of kittens in his front yard 11 years ago and brought them into the office to share. One of those kittens was my Evil Kitty who has been there for all the highs and lows during the last decade. She took many weekend trips to NYC with me while I tried to salvage my first marriage and sat in judgment when Matt first walked in my door. I knew he was a keeper when Evil (who basically dislikes all people) climbed up on Matt's lap and took a nap. She is one wise old (and grumpy) kitty and I am tremendously grateful to Travis for bringing her to me.

24. I am thankful for my washer and dryer. They have gotten quite a work out the last two months since we've brought puppy home. It feels like I am always washing bedding or towels. With the cold weather coming up, I imagine they'll be working harder than ever with not only our dirty, muddy clothes but also the towels to clean up after a muddy puppy who loves to dig.

25. I am thankful for the 40+ years that I had with my mother.

26. I am thankful for CNET and their honest reviews. We're looking at buying a tablet for the family for Christmas. We started out looking for a small video game for Cha but realized that a tablet offers much more (games, music, movies, tv, internet, etc.) for around the same price. I *think* Santa will be bring Cha (and mom and dad) an HTC Flyer for Christmas.

27. I am thankful for all the time and energy my father spends on the family calendars. He does several calendars a year for the different branches of my family tree. It's a huge task compiling and updating the data and picking just the right pictures but the calendars are always well received. He has already begun printing them out and I look forward to seeing next year's calendar girls/boys.

28. I am thankful for the luxury of having a roof over my head and food on my table. I know in the current economy those aren't items to take for granted.

29. I am thankful for my sister-in-law who gave us a bench and blanket earlier this year. The blanket says 'We may not have it all together but together we have it all.' Very true.

30. I am thankful that 2011 is nearing its end and that 2012 holds great hope and opportunity.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Giving Thanks (part one)

Many Facebook friends and fellow Bloggers are posting Daily Thanks for the month of November. It's a great idea and I am enjoying their words and the emotions behind them.

Life has been way too busy for me lately so promising to do anything every day (other than brush my teeth and put on deodorant) would be a waste of time. So, here are my Daily Thanks for the first part of November. Feel free to read one a day. : )

1. I am thankful for my home, which keeps me comfortable and safe and holds memories of my growing family. It needs a whole lot of work but it's where my little family of three snuggles up together on the couch or sits around the dinner table and creates precious moments. When I saw the house for the first time I fell in love with the 2nd floor hall, the area at the top of the stairs, outside the bedrooms. It's a small area but it seemed so homey, someplace that only those who lived there could appreciate.

2. I am thankful for my little fenced in yard which contains and entertains little Lizzy and makes being a dog owner that much easier. In years passed we've had gardens, sandboxes, tents and pools in that yard but I'm loving that the open space is now being occupied by our sweet puppy, and a half dozen beach balls that have been popped and dragged in the mud.

3. I am thankful for Dr. Singer who performed my post-bilat reconstruction. He is an amazingly talented and caring surgeon and I was blessed to find him. I've recommended him to several friends and family and they all had good experiences with him.

4. I am thankful for Brigitte, who three years ago opened her family's vacation home to a bunch of near strangers for a mom's retreat. That act closely bonded a group of woman and started a bi-annual tradition of weekend getaways filled with staying up too late, waking up too early, enjoying fresh air and afternoon naps, laughing til it hurts, countless empty bottles, too much food, practical jokes, tears, and the occasional F word.

5. I am thankful for the passage of time. It is wrinkling my skin and turning my hair gray and straw-like but it has also soothed old wounds and provided clarity. It allowed me to send birthday cards or notes of condolences to old friends. Events or acts that once devastated are put in their place and seem smaller with the passage of time.

6. I am thankful for our military and our veterans who gave or continue to give so much of themselves to my family and yours could remain safe, secure and most of all free. Tomorrow Cha's school is hosting a special lunch for veterans in their cafeteria. They will be playing a slideshow of service men and women dear to our children's lives. I sent in pictures of a few family and friends and am kinda thankful that I didn't volunteer to help. I can see myself blubbering all over the food.

7. I am thankful for my husband, his love, and the love he has for our child. This year we celebrate ten years together. It has been one wild roller coaster ride but when I think of the most joyful moments of my entire life, Matt is there. He is responsible for the best of the best and things will only get better.

8. I am thankful for my California roots. I grew up in So Cal in the late 60s, early 70s. That's a whole lot of liberalism. I was born with an open mind and was exposed to many different people and ideas. I learned to be tolerant of others and think it has served me well. Being exposed to such conflicting opinions was difficult at times but it left me with a firm grip on my own beliefs. When everyone around you says the sky is pink and you can't help but think it's blue, well that's just who you are. So thank you California for helping me become a better conservative.

9. I am thankful for the middle of the night decision to move to the east coast 22 years ago. I have now officially lived on the east coast longer than I lived on the west coast. When people ask me why I would leave the beach I always tell them I just feel more comfortable out here. I love the people. I admire the brains and attitude of east coasters. And the atmosphere. So Cal is beautiful and the people are gorgeous and amazing and talented and friendly, but in my opinion, east coasters are more genuine. The people are authentic.

10. I am thankful for HBO which puts out some of the Best Shows Ever. My favorites - Boardwalk Empire, Six Feet Under, Sex and the City, The Sopranos, Bored to Death, Curb Your Enthusiasm, Big Love, Flight of the Conchords, In Treatment, Oz. Six Feet Under has the best series finale of all time. Wouldn't it be neat for to see a life fast forwarded for all your favorite characters?

11. I am thankful for Gmail. I was one of the early adopters and got a Gmail invite long before it became public. My techie friends and I used it to share music. I rarely delete email and my in-box reads like a journal, which I go back and read quite often. There's a lot of history in those notes. A few were too painful to keep so they're gone without a trace, but those updates from Cha's early days or dating ramblings with the girlfriends is good stuff.

12. I am thankful for Blogger profiles which has introduced me to hundreds (if not thousands) of hours reading fascinating stories from around the world. I've become friends with several bloggers and am always excited when I stumble on someone new and get caught up on their posts.

13. I am thankful for the Patch Network 'your source for local knowledge you can't live without'. I have learned more about my community by reading my local Patch than from many years of reading the local newspaper. Check them out and see what you learn about your neighborhood.

14. I am thankful for my local library and the librarian who has known my daughter's name forever. Other than having a great children's book selection, fun story times, and cool programs, they also have an awesome used book room where for $5 you can fill an entire duffel bag with books to take home. (Yes, I know you can check them out and read them for FREE but some books I just love having on my shelf, which is why I don't think I'm a Kindle person.)

15. I am thankful for my Droid. It completes me!

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Happy Thoughts and Thanks

I am thankful that my daughter is enjoying school and is excited about going each day. May that last a long, long time.

I am glad that my dad is settled in at his new house and is finding joy in his life.

I am happy my husband is successfully embracing a vegetarian diet, which has led to weight loss and muscle gain.

I am delighted that while Cha and I still eat (and enjoy) meat, we are eating less of it and chowing down on more veggies.

I am ecstatic that it's Mom's Retreat planning time! We'll be heading up to the lake sometime in late October or early November. Fun, fun, fun!

I am super grateful that our house did not suffer any damage from the recent hurricane, earthquake, or flooding and that our basement remained dry. Yippee!!

I am relieved that I finally decided on Cha's 6th birthday party and the invites have been sent out, and many RSVPs have been received. She's going to be excited and surprised.

I am stoked that the new season of Boardwalk Empire will be starting soon, and that the past episodes are On Demand so I can get caught up.

I am also looking forward to the new season of Bored to Death. It's one of the funniest shows on TV and Ted Danson has never been funnier!

I am getting a kick out of the banter between @SteveMartinToGo, @AlecBaldwin, @GarryShandling, and @AlbertBrooks on Twitter. You have to follow all four to read them play off each other. They are four of my favorite comedians and they make me laugh every day. (And you can find me at @jonijenks, tho I follow more than I post.)

Thursday, June 16, 2011

for lynn



Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe"


Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe-awe-awe

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

ten things

Ten things to be grateful for this beautiful Tuesday morning:


My gym membership
Katy Perry tickets
Nieces who text
An abundance of sharpened pencils with fun erasers
My local library
Friends who love to read
My sanity
Second chances
Cha's art work
Online dating (ten years and counting....)

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

ten things

Ten things to be grateful for this beautiful Tuesday morning:

Working A/C at the office
A full tank of gas
Delicious fresh fruit for lunch
Memories of a fun-filled and safe Memorial Day Weekend
The future
Great friends
Sweet and lovable kitties
Comfortable summer sandals
Vacation planning
NPR

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Thankful Thursday

1. I am thankful for our oven. Cha and I had so much fun making heart shaped cookies tonight. She said she wanted to make something special for her friends at school.

2. I am thankful for the local library that had Help Me Say Goodbye and several other books for children on grieving. Cha and I stopped by after work and found everything we were looking for and got a chance to play on the computer and roll around the community room.

3. I am thankful for my little beagle for providing comfort and joy to the family. I love that little dog so much.

4. I am thankful for my cell phone, which Cha uses every week to call her Grandpa. I love listening to her talk to him. She's such a funny little girl.

5. I am thankful for the cooler weather.

6. I am thankful for the roof over my head and the food in my belly.

7. I am thankful for my job, which provides me with a place to dump Halloween Candy that I do not want in the house anymore.

8. I am thankful for Modern Family which is really, really, really funny and you really, really, really should start watching it. The biggest laughs I've had in a while.

9. I am thankful for leftover catering at work, which makes lunchtime more enjoyable.

10. I am thankful that this year is almost over.

Friday, October 29, 2010

A long overdue Thankful Thursday

Life has been kinda crappy but there's always something to be thankful for.

1. I am thankful for the family in Collegeville who purchased a brand new, fancy washing machine which led them to post their old one on Craigslist. Our machine went kaput two weeks ago and while I was getting used to hanging out at the public washer I am very thankful to have a working machine in my basement again. It's a super nice one too and quite a bargain at only $100.

2. I am thankful that Cousin Missy came out of surgery fine and dandy this week. I will always toast to her health.

3. I am thankful that Cha's high fever and complaints that her sides and back hurt was nothing more serious than another bladder infection. When her school called this morning and said she was running a 103 fever I had fears of appendicitis. She was in a lot of pain but the motrin, tylenol and suprex have made her feel much better in the last 12 hours.

4. I am thankful that the weather has been amazing this week. It's been in the mid to high 70s all week. It's crazy shorts weather! We are heading back down to the 50s this weekend, but that's perfect Halloween weather so it's all good.

5. I am thankful for Resolve Carpet Cleaner. With two cats, a dog, a 5 year old and a messy spouse, Resolve has been a sanity saver. Tho I am still kicking myself for installing cream colored carpet.

6. I am thankful for my very reliable Toyota Yaris which Cha and I will be taking on yet another road trip at the end of November. We'll be driving nearly 1,000 miles to my mother's memorial service in Wisconsin.

7. I am thankful for the wonderful friends in my life who know exactly what to say and when to say it.

8. I am thankful for Cha's teacher who has been doing a great job teaching her to read. Cha has been dreaming about reading for a year and she's finally getting it. I am so very proud of her and thankful that Miss Beth has made learning to read fun for my little girl.

9. I am thankful for my husband for his big shoulders, which have provided much sanity during my mental unrest.

10. I am thankful for blogspot for always being there when I need her.

Bonus: I am thankful for the woman at the crematorium who 'checked the back' and just happened to find the perfect stray mini-urn. She showed my father and I many urns and saw that I was hoping to find something similar to my brother Keith's. She walked in the back and found exactly what I was looking for. Below is my Mother on the left and Brother Keith on the fight. It means so much to me that they match, tho I have no idea why.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Blogging

As anyone who has created and maintained a blog can tell you, it's very therapeutic. Over the past nearly two years my blog has helped me inform my family about my health updates, meet and lean on others who were also battling cancer, and get a whole lot off my chest (pun intended). Having an outlet to vent about both good and bad was incredibly important and I hope that by being open I was able to provide a bit of help or least some understanding to others experiencing the same.

But it feels like, thanks to God, my breast cancer journey is complete. I saw an oncologist who said I'm done. I have only the tiniest bit of breast tissue left in my body and the chance that my cancer will come back is slim to none. I will continue monthly BSEs to get a feel for changes to my breasts, but I had my last ever mammogram on December 3, 2007 and feel blessed that I never have to have another. I had DCIS, which some doctors don't even consider cancer. I made an aggressive decision to have both breasts removed. At the time a friend told me that it was an 'overly dramatic' move. Well, it might have been but I have no regrets. It was well worth the peace of mind.

My reconstructed breasts are just fine. The scars are fading and they feel okay. They aren't perfect, but neither were my natural ones. My fake nipples look great even if they still don't have any feeling. So, I have no complaints. I will always have a doctor crush on Drs. Singer Kripke. They were knights in shining armor during a very bad time and I will continue to recommend them to anyone needing their services.

My depression [knock wood] is gone. I have been off Lexapro for just about two months and no longer feel any side effects of the withdrawal. My mind is the same as before the cancer, crabbiness and all. I had some amazing therapy sessions during the past two years but learned that most of the hard times were due to circumstances and not severe mental flaws. I see no reason to continue seeing someone.

So I guess that's it. I have been struggling with what to do with this blog, contemplating posting other personal information about my life and struggles but I've decided to let it be.

Thanks for reading and being there for me.

:)

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Thankful Thursday!

Woo Hoo! It's been a while but I've really got a lot to be thankful for.

1. Dr. Coonhead gave me a copy of The Year of Living Biblically for my birthday. I finished it last week and immediately wanted to start reading it again. It's a great resource and gave me so much to think about. I need to search other people who read it so we can discuss. Thank you Coonhead!

2. I'm thankful that Dr. S finally got his office set up so I can meet him for my follow up appt. I'm scheduled for the end of the month. I called his old office and requested my files which should be ready next week. When one of his other patients picked up her files all she got was a very thin surgical report. When I requested mine I asked for the whole kit and caboodle, including the pictures. I want to make sure he gets the pictures so there's a clear before and after shot.

3. I am incredibly thankful for the weather. The rain is finally gone and we've had clear skies and perfect temps. I worked at home yesterday and opened all the windows and doors. It felt wonderful.

4. I am thankful for Cousin Jessie who friended me on fb. He's in the WI National Guard and was recently deployed. I'm sure he'll be included in my regular thanks to God.

5. I am thankful for my girlfriends who will be joining me at zumba tonight. Misery loves company, and all. I'm pumping myself up for some fun excercise but those YouTube videos are scary. We'll see what tomorrow morning brings.

6. My vegetable garden hasn't died yet. I planted cukes, peppers, watermelon, and tomatoes about three weeks ago. They haven't produced anything yet but they're still growing which is a good sign. Matt is also working on the grass. Our backyard was a jungle when we moved in and it's great to see it looking so nice.

7. I am thankful that Matt and I are both employed. Several of my friends and/or their spouses were recently laid off and it's so scary to think about what could happen. The economy is in the pits! Knock wood if you've got a job people.

8. I'm thankful that my little girl is growing up to be such a funny kid. On the way to school this morning we were jamming to MJ's Thriller. She was in the back seat throwing her arms around and pretending to sing in the mirror. She said Michael Jackson is her favorite. I love our time together.

9. I am super thankful for the family in Schwenksville who made space for two awesome kitties. Cha has asked about them several times and says she misses them and wants them to come home from the 'dog store' but it really is for the best. : (

10. Thanks to all the other Cancer Sisters for sharing their stories and providing support to those who need it.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Lucky Me

I have much to be grateful for. Life is very, very good to me. I have more than I ever thought I would and am blessed in so many ways.

This hit me tonight as I got off the phone with my mother. Cha called her Grandma to tell her that she got her ears pierced. I went on to tell my mom about the whole experience and commented that Cha is a very lucky child and I hope she appreciates it. I continued to think about it after I hung up. My daughter is very fortunate to have a life filled with good food, plenty of toys, a comfortable home, a family who adore her and a gaggle of shiny, happy girlfriends. But seriously, I am the fortunate one who has the physical, financial and emotional means to provide this life for my child. And I am the one blessed with the little girl that I always wanted.

So this is how the earrings happened. Yesterday I got a note from my girlfriend Jaime. She asked if I wanted to get together with her and her daughter Kenzie (who you might remember from here). We grabbed a bag of goodies (including multiple bathing suits because you just never know) and headed over to Kenzie's house. On the way Cha and I talked about getting her ears pierced, which she's been talking about for months.

When we got to Jaime's I mentioned that maybe we should go get Cha's ears done. Jaime laughed and said she was thinking of taking the girls to a girl's salon called Sweet and Sassy. Jaime called and found out that the Exton location was celebrating their one year birthday and having all sorts of free goodies, including a free limo ride. We thought it was fate so we packed up the girls and headed over. The salon was offering free hair styling, cotton candy, and water ice along with the limo ride. We topped it off with a maicure and made it the perfect day.

Cha was great during the ear piercing. The salon did a fantastic job of putting her at ease and making it a fun event. She sat in a princess chair and got to pick out her own earrings (pink stars). I sat in front of her and held her hands while two women stood on either side of her and quickly did the piercing. Cha barely winced and there wasn't a single tear. She immediately started smiling and showing off her beautiful ears. Later in the bathroom she told me 'Mommy, that really hurt' but hasn't mentioned the pain again.

The new look is darling and I'm so proud of my little girl. She really is turning into a girlie-girl despite me and my tomboy ways. I thought for certain she'd be a sports freak like I was but she loves dressing up, playing with dolls and pretending to put on make up. Honestly, I'm not sure why I even bothered to buy shorts this summer. She won't wear anything but dresses, especially the kind she can twirl.


Thursday, March 19, 2009

Thankful Thursday?

I'm not sure if this counts as being thankful, but it's all I can muster.....

1. I'm thankful that I am employed today even tho I cannot stop stressing over Matt and I both losing our jobs.

2. I am thankful that I am alive even tho I am obsessed with the Natasha Richardson story and fretting over losing my life at any moment.

3. I am thankful that I have a wide and loving circle of friends even tho when one of them has a hard time or experiences loss I cannot stop crying for them.

4. I am thankful that we finally figured out that Cha has an ear infection and the anti-biotics and ibuprofen helped her get a good night's sleep last night. However, I am kicking myself for not picking up on the symptoms earlier and my little girl was in pain much longer than she needed to be.

5. I am thankful for my car and the great gas mileage that it gets, but I worry over the car payment.

6. I am thankful for fellow blogger Cari who unknowingly provided information and comfort during my breast cancer fight. I looked at pictures of her happy face and knew that that was my future. Now that she's battling cancer again and having a much rougher time of it I fear that once again I am looking at my future.

I'm having a tough time with sadness this week. Maybe it's physically not feeling well or not getting enough sleep. I just wish life wasn't so scary.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Thankful Thursday

It's been a while.

I am thankful that J/P finally had her little boy. Welcome to the world Baby C!

I am thankful that Laura legally has her baby Mercy.

I am thankful for naps

I am thankful for new and old friends.

I am thankful for the time Cha spent with my parents last summer.

I am thankful that facebook allows me to keep up with my family and friends.

I am thankful that the sun finally came out today and burned off the fog.

I am thankful that my husband still looks at me 'that way'.

I am thankful that Cha sleeps so well at night.

I am thankful for my DVR.