Thursday, May 24, 2012

i still miss someone

Missing my mom on my birthday.

A song from my birthday buddy Bob Dylan...



Friday, May 4, 2012

good night my someone, good night my love

The first post ever in this blog was written after putting my little ChaCha Bear to bed.   Bedtimes have always been a long process and whereas sometimes (many times) I have a long list of end-of-day duties that need to be done, I treasure that time with her.   Our bedtime ritual usually lasts 30-40 minutes but on occasion she's been asleep within 10 minutes of walking in her bedroom door.

Read
Turn off the light
Talk briefly about the day
Sing lullabies
Rub her back and massage her head
Zzzzzzzz

There are a half dozen lullabies that I sing with my terrible and shaky voice.   When she was around two she started asking me to sing the ABC song, which is an odd choice but I can see how it can be soothing.

I can still hear her so clearly.   'Sing ABC Mommy.'  

I would lay down next to her, gently rub or tickle her back and sing the Alphabet Song while watching her fall into a deep and peaceful toddler sleep.  Then I'd slip out of the room and finish my mommy tasks.

She sleeps with a nightlight.  It's a glowing teddy bear that we call Bear Light.  Bear Light and Pillow Pet are bedtime requirements, along with the books and songs.

Last week she told me she's too old for a nightlight so she tried to sleep without it, but grew scared.   I told her I need Bear Light because sometimes I sneak into her room to watch her sleep and kiss her on the forehead, and I couldn't do it without a nightlight.   She's now free to keep Bear Light and blame it on me.


twinkle, twinkle little Char
how i wonder where you are
up above the world so high
like a diamond in the sky

twinkle, twinkle little Char
how i wonder where you are

I love bedtime.